这个社会越来越现实的展现在我的面前，越来越明显的黑暗以及时有时无的希望。幸好我一直认为这个世界上最公平的事情就是上苍对每个人都不公平，所以活得舒坦。可能人性也是这样吧，有些一直信任的人与一面之缘的人，他们的忽冷忽热，反复无常，让我时不时的消沉一阵儿，又重新燃起希望。为了生活，也许仅仅能称之为生存，只能应战，别无他法。

想起当初反复看了好几遍的《猜火车》的开头，Mark的独白和狂奔，Iggy Pop的歌。

"Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television. Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace you. Choose your future. Choose life. "

没有人能拒绝长大，拒绝选择，拒绝负责任，除非你想被社会抛弃。总有一天，我们都会步入正轨，向前辈人一样生活，而我们的下一代也会像我们一样单纯过，叛逆过，最终变成一个规矩的社会人。我们认同了父母的现实主义，开始务实，面包超越理想，为自己曾经的荒唐买单，也不得不面对各种潜规则。不想变成曾经不屑的人，又渴望社会的认可，便逐渐麻木了。生命是一个又一个的轮回，我们青春期里的单纯终将被圆滑代替。可是，我还是希望生命里会留下一些东西，无论环境变幻，一直不曾改变。

另，多事的2008年终于要过去了，希望新的一年，咱们都越来越好。